get it over

2006-10-16T20:51:00.000+08:00

baboon?

2006-10-16T20:39:00.000+08:00

why wont my posts appear?

2006-10-16T02:05:00.000+08:00

CAMPUS ON SATURDAYS MAKES ME HYPER-LY HAPPY :):)
MEETING JESUS MAKES ME HAPPY :):)
WORSHIP MAKES ME HAPPY:):)
THE CG MAKES ME HAPPY :):)
THE DANCE GIRLS MAKES ME HAPPY :):)
FELLOWSHIP MAKES ME HAPPY :):)
blinkblink song makes me happy
<3<3

2006-10-16T01:44:00.000+08:00

falling in love.

2006-10-14T10:12:00.000+08:00

therein lies love

not that i loved you lord,

but that you loved me.

2006-10-12T02:20:00.001+08:00

passion?no?

i realised something today.
all these while ive complained about not being in the item, about not being noticed by wendy..

but what she said today really shook me up.
do i still have the same passion i use to have when i first joined the choir?
do i still jump in excitement each wednesday?
do i still bring my MP3 to record practices so i can listen to them over and over and over again?
do i bring my choir lyrics book for choir practices knowing there are so many songs that i still dont know?
do i pay as much attention to what wendy says?
do i still love serving that much???

these questions really shook me up.
do i?

my answer terrified me.
no i dont.

im not that excited about serving anymore, im even less excited about choir practices, im discouraged not being able to serve for item, i think its useless to record down practices because (we're sops, whats there to not know?), i think the lyrics are useless cause i know must of them.

what am i gonna do?
daddy do something.
dont allow this fire to die down.
dnt allot my passion to serve you die.
dont allow it to happen daddy.

i want to serve you each time anew, as if its my first, as if its my first time serving you, falling in love with you. renew my spirit daddygod. renew my soul. open my eyes, let me see your glory, open my heart, let me see your love.

daddy im terrified of my answer.
im terrified looking at myself seeing someone who no longer that much passion in serving you. im terrified to see someone getting tired of serving. no daddy. dont let me turn into someone like that. show me, show me you are unfailing, you never give up on me.

prove it to me daddy.

prove it to me, your love, so attractive, i'd never get bored of it.

prove it.

(please)

2006-10-10T16:29:00.000+08:00

http://enrapturement.blogspot.com/
NEW BLOG! :)

that was how saturday was spent.

lovely

2006-10-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

for all you people out there who said im childish,
THERE!
READ THIS!

Blame it on the land of Indo mee... says:
hey u're only 18?
Blame it on the land of Indo mee... says:
no shit

Blame it on the land of Indo mee... says:
but u do behave maturely for one who is 18

Blame it on the land of Indo mee... says:
i tink u handle situations maturely

Blame it on the land of Indo mee... says:
it's juz my observation la

NEH NEH! :):)

2006-10-08T01:50:00.000+08:00

http://www.slashfilm.com/article.php/20061005jurassic-park-director
OMG!
JURASSIC PARK 4!!!!!!

mia!!
we need to start watching 1 2 & 3
ok your house!
when your vcd player is okay!

:):)

2006-10-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

mister talldarkhandsome
WHERE ARE YOU

its ok
you dont have to hide
time to come out

HAHAHAHA

Hungry eyes says:
he's so bloody HOT CAN

no, he's bloody gorgeous. :)

Hungry eyes says:
UH HUH

:)

(bloodygorgeous!!)

2006-10-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

because my comp has problems and i only have photos with my church lovelies. so all i can play photoshop with is my lovelies.
HAHA
people take new photos with me
den i can play with those.
:)

yay tml SP musical.
cant wait.
photos and photos and photos!
time for everyone to look good and then feel overdressed. HAHAHA.
how fun is that.
awesome!
KAIWEN BRING UR CAM!
<33

such fun awaits i cant sleep.
HAHA nah.

2006-10-06T16:15:00.000+08:00

RESTORED.

when i say restoration is mine, IT IS MINE!
and when i proclaim restoration, it WILL come to pass.
and guess what?
.
.
.
I AM RESTORED.
FULLY.
DOUBLY RESTORED.
TRIPLE-LY RESTORED

because not only do i have my phone back
ive been prayed for by coach, ive felt the love of my kingdom friends, ive seen what it is like to rejoice in tribulations, and most imptly
i know my god is faithful.
oh so faithful he is :)

ive been restored in triple portions because ive recieved so much more compared to my loss(of phone for the day).

my god is so good.
so good.

to have so many brothers and sisters pray over me, proclaim over me, tell me their testimonies. WOW AWESOME. HEH HEH

:):)
praise god praise god praise god!!
<3

2006-10-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

Zach- born for a great destiny and purpose! says:
very drama leh you

**

i am hoh.
HAHAHAHA
drama mama.
:)

2006-10-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

RESTORATION!

yes daddy
RESTORATION OVER MY lost PHONE!
it shall either be returned to me, or i will recieve a new gift(phone) from my daddygod. in anyhoo, it will be full restored to me, in DOUBLE PORTIONS! :):)
let not your heart be troubled.
this shall not affect my moods, shall not affect how i feel. because i AM BLESSED! whether or not that phone is with me, i am blessed, because jesus is with me. we'll use telekinesis for now eh jesus :)

im so blessed you know?
when people lose their phones
they dont have a worship leader/campus leader to pray over them, but i do!
i had coach angie pray over me!
how cool is that! :):) spiritual authority! i give her spiritual authority daddy!
such favour dont you think? out of the 400 youths in campus ministry, she knows who i am!

and such favour in the right place and the right time, she was there to see me looking for my phone, and to pray for me :):)
im so blessed!

you now what?
this is the devil's attack.
and he's failing miserably!
after pastor mark's message on no condemnation from the parents, of how situations dont determine the love of your parents and your heavenly daddy, of how children feel under the pressure of law parents.. the devil steals my phone! what a feeble attempt to shake my faith!

if not for the message tonight, i would have been terrified! i would still be terrified actually.. 'what will daddy say, oh no. my phone's been with me for not even a year, daddy's gonna be soooo pissed with me i'll prolly never get a phone again in this lifetime, im so screwed'

but now instead, what am i doing?
HERE I AM PRAISING THE LORD!
yes he is good
all the time he is good :):)

i see such favour such blessings in my life
devil, you'll never rob me of this love!
so EAT DUST!!

__________

(the new walkout song was AMAZING! so anointed :):) )

lord im here, to sit at your feet
to behold your beauty
speak your word, your voice i will seek
let your presence wash over me

its the one thing that i need
in your presense, its all i'll ever seek
overwhelm me in your love
till all i see is you
all i see is you

jesus,
all my fears
they fade away
when i see you
when i see you

<3

2006-10-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

the monkey, the rabbit, and the elephant :):)

2006-10-02T18:01:00.000+08:00

is it that hard to understand?

2006-09-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

a girl.

i feel like a girl again after recieving flowers. even though all the dancers gt flowers from (childish), it just feels good lah. its been a long time since flowers, since chocolates, since boys. haha. and all these while ive been treating myself as one of the "guys" since they treat me as one of them. havent felt girly in a looooong time. heh.

so sweet leh. melt my heart eh give flower.
heh. thanks (childish)
:):)

today felt like it passed super fast.
smiles.
waking up at 6 to reach dhoby @ 8, (childish) being late again, climbing up those scary stairs, feeling like elephants on stage, cabbing back to suntec.
sitting there eating and playing chop chilli chopchopchop laughing, waiting to do hair in the toilet, laughing at melody's IMH patients, talking abt sleeping in toilets and trains.
awesome message shared by pastorchin's wife, going out to do hair and makeup again, kenneth doing my hair multiple times, eating dinner laughin at kenneth, rushing over to fort canning.
standing there feeling scared, lookin at the slideshow with tears in my eyes, dancing and laughing, and that incredible praise and worship time.

oh daddy praise and worship today felt SO GOOD!
crying out to you, falling even deeper in your love, casting all my cares to you, jumping dancing sweating my ass off for you, running around in love! awesome..

yes daddy
i believe that i am made for greater things than this
im so comforted, that even when i dont believe in myself, you believe in me. you know that i can soar above my dreams, and you have created me, meant for me to do great things in life.
its magnificent.

dancers
ive really enjoyed this month spent with you.
from thinking that i have 2 left feet, now i realise i do have a right feet afterall. you guys really brighten up my thursday and saturdays. what am i gonna do now that its all over?
funny, initially i felt relief that its all over, then i felt sad cause we wont meet every thurs and sat again to laugh at each other. but daddy comforted me, told me there would be other chances, kingdom friends we are, and its lasts for eternity.. because in heaven we'd be together worshipping dancing singing for him.
you know what else he told me?
he told me he has such great plans for ALL of you.
you are gonna GO INTO THE NATIONS
and SOW HIS SEED! you will see your harvest come!
and whatever that you have asked him,
in his exact words 'your manifestation is coming'
ITS COMING MY LOVES!!:):):):):):)
doesnt that just warms your heart?
to know that the eternal king of heaven, the majesty loves you.
<3

im loving every second of your love.
<3

2006-09-29T19:11:00.000+08:00

narnia.

All hope was fading, a darkness far beyond their might
But love came crusading on the wings of healing sacrifice
He gave them something to believe
Came back in all His majesty
He conquered evil through His love
and handed them the land they were dreaming of.

2006-09-29T18:46:00.000+08:00

GOONG!

yay.
im so not a person to watch dramas, especially korean dramas. cause i just end up crying all the time. oh man! :):):)
how can i keep crying over same stuff that happens in every single korean drama i watch? see full house, see kim sam soon, and see goong! its all the same can! HAHA. ok lets face it. im hopeless :)

i spent 2days 2nights watching goong. oblivious to whatever my sister or parents were doing. HAHA. so funny. i think my internal clock is going crazyyyy! i sleep at 7 and wake up at 3. oh man. how to tune back when school starts?

ok im done whining. :)

An Ephemeral Flower contrary to my beliefs, chair-ree-ant loves me. deepdeep in her heart.

ameliadictionary.com

An Ephemeral Flower says:
lsdfk;alesjrgbdkfvjb

as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
wefoivhdgvlndhjyerphb

nonsense! :):)

<3love!

2006-09-29T00:10:00.000+08:00

daddy,
you give me wings to soar above my dreams. thankyou.
-love cherri <3

my beloved,
i'll give you wings channelled with my strength, that would bring you soaring far far above your biggest dreams and highest expectations.
i love you.
-daddygod.

2006-09-26T02:53:00.000+08:00

Shooting stars are not stars at all. They're just rocks that enter the atmosphere and catch fire under friction. What we wish on, when we see one, is only a trail of debris.
wishes.

2006-09-26T00:02:00.001+08:00

excitement.MORE!

omg im so excited abt the women's meeting.
oh daddy let it be good!
give me the strength and stamina to not pant like a dog half way thru the dance please oh please! supernatural strength from the heavens i command!
dont let me forget my steps please. save me from all that embarrassment and give me double portion-ed glory and honour!

so excited to impact lives!
so excited to lost myself in your prescence!
so excited to cry and cry and cry and smudge alllll my makeup!
oh daddy so excited to fall even deeper in love with you!

lets see.
change in plans.
today day out with mia!
tues choir day!
wed movie date with mia/dance@ night!
thurs dance whole day!
fri BS!
sat men&women's MEETING! (like finally)
<3<3<3<3<3

oh daddy such an exciting life with you.
how will i bear to leave when its the rapture?!
HAHA jk. its better there
which makes it even more exciting!
cause daddy, this is SO GOOD alrd!

<3<3<3<3<3

2006-09-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

lightbulb head.

ok im so not an artsy fartsy person.
artsy fartsy day out with mia failed terribly.
we turned artsy fartsy day into horror monday.
HAHA
lousy stupid waste-money movie.
i hate watching horrors with people who are nt scared. why am i the only one afraid?! dammit i can see thru my fingers ok! I CAN! stupid mia.

watching previews is fun.
i think i shall add that to one of my favourite pastimes.
heh.

i swear i am soooooo sick of orchard!
but since singapore is so tiny and boring
all i have is orchard. sigh. haha
fareast and lido and wisma and BORINGNESS

oh yeah.
yesterday pastor joshua treated me to a cup of lemon tea in the kopitiam :):):)
favour favour favour!

<3<3<3

2006-09-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

quiet time.

time with jesus
time to rest
time to recieve
time to listen
time to be loved.
:)

melody i have an idea!
dont try to sleep
lie on your bed, just rest in his prescence! have your quiet time with daddy on your bed before your sleep. let him calm your soul. invite him into your room, let him fill it with his prescence and let him fill you. so if you fall aslp, you will fall aslp in his prescence, and wake up in it. wont that be good.
:)

dance at jitterbugs!
i so want to learn salsa. please someone go learn with me. its so sexy. i want to be sexy. HAHA. sexy not childish please. heh.
practice was good, lifes so fun.
let me show you my schedule this week.

mon - stone
tues - choir pract
wed - mia artsy fartsy day
thurs - dance, bs
fri - full dress rehersal
sat - women's meeting!
sun - serving!

so exciting right.
i wish school would never open
i wish classes would never start
i wish dance would never end
i wish this exciting life would never stop

haha
:)
<3

2006-09-24T01:31:00.000+08:00

help me get these songs?

These Days - Chantal Kreviazuk
Black Roses Red - Alana Grace
If God Made You - Five for Fighting
Just For You - William Tell
Closer To You - Brandi Carlile
Be Be Your Love - Rachael Yamagata
Sun's Gonna Rise - Shannon Curfman
Simple - Katy Perry
Always There In You - The Valli Girls

someone?

please?

<3!!!

2006-09-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
you can suffer in silence wan leh
as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
dont need to make noise

as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
eh forbidden city quite nice ah
as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
wah the vocals damn power

as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
go there
as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
smile at him sweetly
as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
and scream in your mind, WHY NV TEXT ME YOU BLOODY ASSHOLE.
as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
but ofcourse. continue smiling at him sweetly and allow him to wallow in his guilt

as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
yep.
as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
thats what people who havent had boyfriends in ages think.

as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
ofcourse.
as a bride adorns herself with jewels. says:
im the expert :)

<3

2006-09-22T03:00:00.000+08:00

horror thursday.

i have a question.
does having very boring favourite playmate make me a very boring person? :)

it didnt go as plan, but it sure was still horror thursday.

im a kid again! i watched a chickflick! and i enjoyed it! boy it started out so hopeful, until it fell flat that is. imagina being a cinema fullllll of sec 4 kids, that laugh at everything and make alotalotalot of noise, and they take your seat! it was horror thursday oh yeah.

and please amelia,
we're not watching night at the museum okay.
childish. :P

anyway yeahh
dance was fun as usual.
i really really should excercise more.
hmm.

sats are boring without campus.
no dance no campus.
what will i do?!
i'll sleep till 4, wake up, stone eat dinner, continue watching tv and sleep. yeah.

love! <3

2006-09-21T00:08:00.000+08:00

random thots.

i really like my not very obvious but actually really very black hair.

i would really really like to be in the choir item.

i ate alot during the newcomers party in choir just now. i think coach angie is really really pretty. and i think joy is gorgeous. really.

amelia is my favourite playmate. and reading chatlogs are our favourite pastimes.

i would really like it if i stop having midnight suppers with my tv. its not good you know.

kaiwen has cut her hair. should i get bangs?

ive wanted to have long curls in a while. i would look like a transvetite yes no?

i want too many pairs of red shoes. this red, bow faze has to pass soon. im spending too much money.

i really enjoy dance practices, really look forward to them, but somehow dont really enjoy the proccess that much. just like anticipating it. haha

i would like it alot more if unusual people come talk to me online instead of the usual boring people :amelia.

im watching alot of hongkong dramas now. im very hongkong-ey now. i wan to go to hongkong please.

i love my new red bag. i like looking at myself taking things out frm my new red bag.

i want to watch monster house. yes im childish but so are you.

i cannot wait for women's meeting and the HM6

i have a long list of birthday wishes. if you are my best friend that i do not know of and is planning what to buy me for my birthday alrd, please come forward and ask me anonymously. i'll tell you, promise its below 100 bucks. haha

yep.

<3!

2006-09-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

dance to the audience of One.

ok kaiwen.
im gonna get that grey toga top with that amazing print. dont care. you want the normal top version? we can go get together.
i mean together like together with the cute green/red shoes we want. :D when we have money ofcourse. no more impulse buys.no more!

and amelia lee
do you still want the white pumps? cause i still want the red pumps. on horror thursday mayb? :) what did mummy say about the black pointies? roundies are in lah trust me. heh. i will make utmost effort to persuade my mom into allowing me to stay over at your place so i can bug you like hell and make sure you get so sick of me you never want to hang out with me again until school reopens which actually reminds me do you really want to work with me on the first week of oct? say yes! :)

jared kang.
you are not allowed to hate me because i did go for dinner! and it was fun okayy.. i know lah. you miss me even though you say you hate me. :D!

ok.
ive always known singing unto the lord as worship. now i shall learn how to dance to the lord as worship.

so poetic right.
dance to the audience of ONE.

<3

2006-09-19T14:48:00.000+08:00

IVE GOT BLACK HAIR!

i got sick of my faded ahlian hair so i self-dyed it allll black so now when i bathe i get grey water which makes me think of The Ring which is kinda creepy yet kinda interesting because you wonder how come you washed it three times alrd and the color is still there den you remember oh yeah back when you were 16 it took you 7 washes to finally get clear water instead of red-pinkish water.

so yeah. ive got black hair.
:)

2006-09-17T20:27:00.000+08:00

it smells like him

"One blistering afternoon in the summer of 1996 near her home in Irving , Texas , Dana was sitting in her mother's lap in the bleachers of a local ball park. As always, Dana was chattering nonstop with her mother and several other adults sitting nearby when she suddenly fell silent.

Hugging her arms across her chest, little Dana asked,

"Do you smell that?"

Smelling the air and detecting the approach of a thunderstorm,Diana replied,

"Yes, it smells like rain."

Dana closed her eyes and again asked,

"Do you smell that?"

Once again, her mother replied,

"Yes, I think we're about to get wet. It smells like rain."

Still caught in the moment, Dana shook her head, patted her thin
shoulders with her small hands and loudly announced,

"No, it smells like Him.It smells like God when you lay your head on His chest."

...Tears blurred Diana's eyes as Dana happily hopped down to play with the other children.

God was holding Dana on His chest and it is His loving scent that she remembers so well. "
__

thats nt the full story, the full one is on melody's blog. but this part just impacted me so much tears just rolled down. wow, its awesome isnt it. to be so intimate with daddygod, you know how he smells like. i can see myself, lying on his chest, smelling his scent, being that close to his heart knowing how much i am safe and loved. awesome!

:)

i LOVE serving in the indoors!
but i hate walking out of it.

choir looked REALLY GOOD on stage today. im so proud to be in ncc choir. and im so proud to have pastor prince with us. he's such a gift to the nations.

i pee-ed i think like. 1000000 times today. and on the stage i nearly nearly nearly PEE-ED!

remind me never to stay around visible lines before service in indoors! scary sandra comes around with her makeup kit to make you look like a wayang girl!

i had 3 packets of milo and 2 sandwiches. but mst importantly, i didnt faint!

i couldnt find my CG!
where did you disappear to!!

dance dance and dance for daddygod!
my worship unto him.
vainpot zach who's real name is zachary!
HAHA!

my butt hurts
-_-

"nvm, it means your butt is becoming firmer and firmer after each practice!"
-esther ann.

<3!

2006-09-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

dear daddygod.

thankyou daddy. thankyou for still running after me. no matter how hard i tried to avoid you, tried to build a wall inside me, you never gave up the fight, you chased me till the ends of the earth, you had to make sure i knew i was safe.

daddy this week was terrible you know. blow after blows, i almost couldnt take it. i wasnt strong enough to take it. but ofcourse, because my hands were not made to take these blows alone, they were made to give these blows to you.

i felt left out, forgotten..
i couldnt see past my failures, couldnt see through my faith, couldnt see you. all the time, while knowing that people cared about me, i didnt bother. i didnt feel loved. i didnt feel secure. and what people said just didnt matter. verses and quotes just didnt help, they were useless, totally. i saw the love in people's eyes, but i didnt feel it. and daddy, i needed to feel it. i so needed to feel your prescence surround me, i needed to lose myself in your embrace, i needed to rest in your love. daddy i needed to hear, properly. not just hear, but listen. listen to your voice. listen to what you are saying.

but i am thankful daddy. oh sweet daddy. thankyou for not giving up on me. thankyou for trying and trying and trying again and again and again. thankyou daddy, for placing such wonderful kingdom friends around me. people who tried and tried to point me towards you. people who never gave up on me despite my self-pitying and constant sulking.

i thank you daddy, for people like steve. who tried and tried to get me to answer his call. who just stood by me 3am in the morning listening to me cry. who made me look up and see jesus. who endured my questions and whining and unhappiness. who told me, that i am a gift. thankyou.

i thankyou daddy, for loves like melody. whos words are what that finally touched my heart, and broke down my wall of defence.
In the sms was, " Believe that God is still working in your life even if you don't feel it. Because verse ???(i forgot) says 'God who has begun a good work on you, will not finish till its over.'
Lie in GREEN pastures! =) And i Love you, Cherri!
thankyou melody. thankyou so much. i guess thats why daddy wants us to have kingdom friends. because your words impacted me so much, thats why i finally broke down when steve talked to me.

i thankyou daddy, for bok. for charissa. for imm. i thankyou for the love i feel coming from their hearts. it really means so much to me. even though those words couldnt reach me, but they reached my spirit man. thankyou. i thankyou daddy, for people like dunstan who would take cab with me and talk to me on such a short notice. i thankyou for the encouragements he gives me

i thankyou daddy. because ive learnt its all about you. none of me.

thankyou daddy.

you did not wait for me to draw near to you
but you clothed yourself with frail humanity
you did not wait for me to cry out to you
but you let me hear your voice calling me

and im forever grateful to you
im forever grateful for the cross
im forever grateful to you
that you came to seek and save the lost.

thats my love song to you tonight daddy.
im so grateful

i love you.
papa
<3

2006-09-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

i need to run away, hide up and cry.

daddy, help. need strength.

2006-09-11T02:13:00.000+08:00

my first love.
jesus.

i think its a beautiful name for the oasis camp.
it really is awesome isnt it.
because before the world even began, therein lay love. not that i love him, but that he loved me.
awesome.
smiles.

dont you think its magnificent whenever you see jesus in everything? i love it you know.

i love it when i listen to the radio and i hear mariah carey's "hero" come on, then i realise that my hero lies in me, my sweet jesus.

when i wait for the bus home tired and sweaty, i see a lorry pass by fully filled, covered with yellow flowers probably for the IMF/world bank thing. but it so cheers my day, and i know its him just wanting to see me smile.

when i see posts like kenny's. i love it. to see the eternal love, in songs that are not meant to be christian. but it so fits doesnt it. because it totally describes the most perfect love there can ever be.

when i recieve random sms-es that warms my heart, i know its jesus sayin there, hi child, your happiness means the most to me

when i see so much favour, i just know. its him. all about him.

isnt it fun? to see all these in daily lives. :)

2006-09-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

i miss you too.

havent been good recently. felt so dry spiritually.

i went for each service with high expectations of meeting daddy, but several times it didnt meet up to my expectations. felt unwanted, left out.

but today i learnt something. that something, refreshed my soul, got me my perspective and warmed my heart.

"jesus miss you"

oh sweet jesus. i miss you too. i miss the way you hug me. i miss the way you wipe away my tears. i miss the way you make things good. i miss the way you whisper love to me. i miss the way you sing love songs to me. i miss the way we use to dance as if nothing else mattered. but most of all, dear sweet jesus, i miss your presence, your love.

im so glad im in your arms again.
its awesome.

coach maddie said something that i realise was true in my life.
"when i was a teen, i was so busy with church stuff i never got my chance to go pubbing or clubbing or to do meaningless activities, and i thankgod for that. because now i know, what i did were things that mean alot to me now."

thats daddy confirming my thoughts.
recently ive been quite busy with campus stuff. and i love it! i absooooolutely LOVE that feeling. i love being involved, i love talking to people, i love knowing im making a difference. and in these business, i know, that im doing good. that i make my daddy smile. oh how precious!

yes jesus loves me.
<3!

2006-09-08T02:40:00.000+08:00

HOPE, the confident expectation of good.

=D!

2006-09-07T15:55:00.000+08:00

joy joy joy!

the joy of the lord is my strength!
it is in him i draw my smiles, my laughters and my grins
it is in him i draw the love to bring smiles to people's faces
it is in him i draw the strength to love the unlovely.

HEH!

one reason why i like anthony so much
: cherri : thanks!! u know, u always bring a smile to all the ppl around u. keep on being tat 'kai xing guo' to all of us!! :)

yest dunstan said almost the same thing to me
i wonder if these two had an agreement to make me feel good abt myself. hahaha

but anw. it got me thinking.
i never use feel good most of the time. use to have a incredibly scary temper, ask shavonne. she would know. heh. ask kaiwen actually, she knows it quite well too.

but its after knowing the love of jesus
i feel so secure in his love, so satisfied with what i have. there are things that i want, but not so much things that i need. because sweet sweet sweet jesus is all i need in this world.
i think its when you know that you're so loved, then you have the ability to love others. its when you are overflowing with joy, that you can bring joy to people's lives.

i feel good because i know my daddy gives me all good things
im happy because this supernatural joy comes directly from the throne of majesty
i feel satisfied because i know i have the best this world can ever give
i can love, because ive tasted the most beautiful love that ever existed.

whats the key to being happy?
to know that you're so selfishly loved.

thankyou daddy
for all the joy you've brougth in my life.

whats the greatest joy ive ever felt?
when i see my daddy smile.

when i see you smile
i can face the world
you know i can do anything
when i see you smile.
jesus when i see you smile at me
<3

2006-09-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

jesus the savior

he looked around the hill and foresaw a scene. three figures hung on three crosses. arms spread. heads fallen forward. they moaned with the wind.

men clad in soldier's garb sat on the ground near the trio

men clad in religion stood off to one side.. arrogant, cocky.

women clad in sorrow huddled at the foot of the hill.. faces tear streaked.

all heaven stood to fight.
all nature rose to rescue.
all eternity poised to protect.
but the Creator gave no command.

"it must be done...," he said, and withdrew

the angel spoke again.
"it would be less painful.."

the Creator interrupted softly.
"but it wouldnt be love."

-max lucado
in the eye of the storm.

it would be love.
if it were anyless painful, anyless torturous, anyless despairing. it wouldnt be love.

oh sweet jesus!
how you suffered for your love for me.

for god SO LOVED me, that he gave his one and only son..
that if I believe in him, I may not be lost, but have ETERNAL LIFE!

daddygod my best.
<3

2006-09-04T01:36:00.000+08:00

new every morning

gods love fuels all faith.
i think its everytime i come out of worship, when i feel so deeply the love of god within me that i feel invincible. i feel as if i can take on the world, no weapon formed against me shall prosper. i feel his love exploding inside me, my whole body, my mind my soul. its so incredible you know. and at that moment, i know immediately. i know that i know that i know, that its gonna be alright.

its what gives me the strength to do what i have to do each day and what gives me the wisdom to make the choices i make. without this love, i am nothing.

what ronnie shared with us is so true isnt it.
the song goes
here i am to worship,
here i am to bow down
here i am to say that you're my god.

it doesnt say
here i am to worship again
to bow down again
or to proclaim that HE is my god again.

because each worship, its a brand new experience, its a brand new love im finding.
its just like singing
the steadfast love of the lord never ceases
his mercies never comes to an end
they are new every morning
new every morning
great is thy faithfulness o lord
great is thy faithfulness.

yes daddy.
each time i come into your prescence, each morning i wake up, i experience them brand new all over again.
<3

2006-09-02T18:57:00.000+08:00

If I take the wings of the dawn (Psalm 139)

展开清晨的翅膀

我可以往哪里去躲避你的灵？

我可以往哪里去逃可躲避你的面？

我若展开清晨的翅膀飞到地极，

就在那里，你的双手也必引导我。

7 Where can I go from Your Spirit?

Or where can I flee from Your presence?

8 If I ascend into heaven, You are there;

If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.

9 If I take the wings of the morning,

And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,

10 Even there Your hand shall lead me,

And Your right hand shall hold me.

how beautiful.<3

2006-09-02T18:14:00.000+08:00

love divine
joy unspeakable
overflowing from my soul
this heart of mine
is refreshed and at rest
in your prescence

daddy this song represents my desires so completely.
<3

2006-09-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

STEVE~

is it because you serve in security, thats why you cannot smile?? HAHA!!!!

that pppoor little boyyy is so sad that people keep asking him this question. HAHA

! =D

2006-09-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

happy teachers day
my favourite teacher.

ive always been very blessed, all along, daddy has given me much favour with teachers that are around me.

in primary school, it was my chinese teacher that asked me to opt for EM1, because she thought i was good enough for it.
in secondary school, it was zhenlaoshi who thought i was good enough for HAHA, poetry recital competitions, and really favoured me alot. even in sec 3, when chenguangdong came and taught me, his teaching was really what that got me my A1. so i really have him to thank for that. the english teachers have always been quite slack on me because daddy gave me quite much wisdom there. =) and how to forget, mrgui! without him, my science wouldnt have been a b3!

its so good to think back and see grace in my life.
but you know what, i see grace now also. heh.

jesus you're such a wonderful teacher
so full of wisdom, so full of neverending patience with me. you never let me go, you never give up on me no matter how reluctant i am to learn my lesson, you always hold my hands and walk me through. when i make a mistake, jesus sweetest you dont scold me, instead you hug me and tell me its alright. oh how i love you jesus! the many times i was desperate and didnt know what to do, you came, calmed my heart and told me how to solve my problem. jesus you're so filled with lovingkindness, that you never call me stupid, or say im slow whenever in the truth, i am.

oh sweet jesus
how lovely you are.
to the best teacher ever,
happy teachers day.
<3

ashley dunstan,
you guys have such an amazing job you know that?
you play jesus in their hearts, in their lives.
YOU are their JESUS!
so go and IMPACT THEM!
show them, the love of christ
show them, how wonderful it would be to grow up knowing you are loved!

<3!

2006-08-31T01:50:00.000+08:00

BANGKOK! and all things cheap!

okayyyy
apparently bkk is much too hyped up.
or mayb because i went to the wrong places..
dont get me wrong, i still bought quite alot. but it wasnt as gd as i thought it would be. its still hongkong for me!

weirdest thing was, while i was in bkk, couldnt stop thinking abt people back here in singapore. couldnt stop wondering what melissalim was doing, couldnt stop thinking whether melialee ally and dawnlo have finally metup, couldnt stop wondering what melody is doing, killing people with her needle? or what the choir is doing in pract. is wendy scolding them?

haha!

actually felt a little sick there
but im healed by the blood of christ!

daddy thankyou for keeping me so safe!
i know its your blood that covers me.

the ride on the plane back was scarrryyy!!
it was super bumpy can!
i was so afraid i had to pray that daddy would cover the plane with his blood, that no evil no terror no arrow nor plague shall ever come near me!

but daddy is good.
he made me sleep.
got rid of all the fears.
thats all that matters.
daddy, me, love.

<3!

2006-08-28T00:45:00.000+08:00

2006-08-28T00:27:00.000+08:00

FUNNY PEOPLE!

"go stuf yrself silly in curry kid.
yr face must be oily and sticky
from the sugar and curry
having prata this hr must be a luxury
nights."

ZK you're the best man.
HAHA! funny boy

my weekend was FANTABULOUS!!

being around to decorate the place before campus starts, playing my NUN ROLE, getting people to tell their tiny little small testimonies that actually contain such huge power, just plain running around and being a part of things that are happening, WOW, I LOVE IT!!!

i want to do so much more!

the event was quite successful i say,
and my quote of the day was
: the best way to bless a person is by letting that person know that they have blessed you.

melody i love you!
and i will make sure the whole world knows you love me too, by SHOWING YOUR VIDEO! HEH HEH!! i will force ZK to put your clip in it. so fun eh. dont you just love me more and more? heh!!

the video was good! oh man. SETH i have so much i want to learn from you, you pro-pro editor! haha i want to learn all those tricks you used to edit that video, and then when i go back to school and edit my videos i will shock mrazhar into his grave! HAHA! wont that be interesting. heh
the catwalk was FUN! hahah! all of the looked SO GOOD! john especially. i can never get over how much john's look transformed. he looks so good, and IM A BOY! HAHAH!

cluster dinner with my favourite cg was the most entertaining. and i got to know a vancouver boy! haha! we had to throw poor little boy aaron away to take bus himself while we were waiting for the car to arrive.. but in the end still had to take cab. bahs!

sunday was GOOD!
all that planning and secrecy!
happy birthday KAIWEN!
officially, you're older den me now.
be responsible and mature okay. HAHA.
ive had enough you tiaos and soya bean milks to last me the lifetime i swear!

THANKYOU DADDY
i wasnt afraid at all, standing on that stage, ministering to your congregation. I LOVE BEING ON THAT STAGE! i love serving in the choir. but my feet reeeeally hurt just now. HAHA. thankyou all you people who smsed me to tell me its miracle sunday and i must remember to eat. thankyou steve for entertaining me the whole morning with your sms-es. thankyou bok, for being such a perfect sweeeetie poo to me. =)
pastor says: now the hurt is all gone!
bok says: no, the hurt has just started, my feet hurts like hell in these shoes!!

i had a great time serving with these thursday people. i love them so much, i might even consider swapping over to thursday instead. heehhhhh!

i cant believe how nonsense mr security steve can get.
stupid pacman and his nose. HAHA!
melody you MUST send me that photo okay.
=)
melody, its 196.. REMEMBER! 196!!

im gonna be in bkk until wed night.
so love me, and pray for me.
in ZK's words: be safe. go bring a baton in yr bag to beat the living lights out of any thai guy stalking u or frd.
HAHA! he's a funny boy.

<3
i just cant help but fall in love with my jesus.

2006-08-26T13:16:00.000+08:00

speak up!

its so true isnt it, what pastor preached in biblestudy.

many times we wan SUPERNATURAL blessings! supernatural as in like, a 100 million bucks suddenly appearing in your bank account! but alot of the time, daddy gives us our miracles supernaturally NATURAL!

when you and your friend are in the same situation, and when your friend gets a SUPERNATURAL miracle, suddenly you find jealousy running through your thoughts. but you keep them to yourself, you pretend that daddy doesnt hear what you are thinking. haha, how foolish of us!

then when daddy comes to us, yes he doesnt wait for us to go to him, he COMES to US!! he looks at you and
says: darling child, why are you bothered?

you answer him in your 'tiny voice'
: i want a supernaturally big miracle like him

he says again
: darling, what?

and you answer stil in your tiny voice
: i want a supernaturally big miracle like him

he bends down to your level and looks at you in the eye
: SPEAK UP MY CHILD! I AM YOUR DADDY!
YOU CAN SPEAK UP TO ME.

you look at him in fear and hope
: daddy i want a supernatural miracle like him!
i dont want to go through that tedious journey, i just want the money to fall from heaven and into my bank account!

then he looks at you and laughs.
and he says
: just trust me darling, trust me.

and suddenly ALL IS ALRIGHT!
your heart feels assured!
your burden is LIGHT!
your yoke is EASY!

daddy is so good.

he comes down to your level to speak to you, he comes down to your level to love you.
OOOH DADDY!!!!!!

<3 SMILES!

2006-08-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

great is your faith!

if anyone remembers me with a title
i want this to be my title.
woman, great is your faith!

jesus, grace personified.
wow.
awesome.

you know, ive always known that my daddygod loves me. every believer should know so. but why? why does he love me so much he sent his son to the cross?

he loves me, because he loves me.

my daddy loves me, because he just does.

its that simple,
its that plain.

sometimes its the truths right infront of our eyes that we dont see. this is what i call, eyes unveiled! HEH!

its simple.
christ, you, love.
life is sweeeeet!

pastor: i was bornt in a wheelchair
meaning - IM LAME!
HAHA!

i feel really blessed to be in this church, to serve in this choir, to be in campus. because i see such great miracles at work. its just amazing. =)

you know what?
and i quote wendy: do you all know that NCC choir is famous for pretty girls?

HAHA!! AMEN!

<3 loved so deeply.

2006-08-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

perfect love drives out all fear.
<3

2006-08-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

PICTURES!
SHOPPING!
LOVE!!

HEH HEH!
FE-NEH-LLY got my cheongsam top!! then i saw another nicer but more expensive and more traditional one in ZARA. on man its like 78 bucks. anyone want to contribute to the cherri-i-love-you fund? heh!!

wahlau.
physically, i must be really growing old!
by 7 pm both of us were tired out alrd again! but there was an improvement. its 7, not 4 this time. HEH!

i think i spent too much money today! but i love shopping!! oh man its the best bonding experience. HAHA there were so many other clothes i wanted to get! im gonna get back to you.. zara and forever 21, WAIT FOR MEEEEE!

ok. fun.
happy.
v happy.
seriously happy.

<3!

2006-08-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

want a banana?

i thought i knew grace.
now i know.
its more beautiful than i ever thought it was.

to know that your name is - I AM.
you are whatever i need you to be.
my closest friend, my savior, my lover, my sheperd, my god..

oh wow. now i see.
grace..
more glorious than what ive ever known.
more beautiful than ive ever imagined
more mighty than ive ever thought.

wow. im so overwhelmed.

i see grace, sealed by your sacrifice

i see love reaching for me

precious blood washes and sanctifies

healing flows, setting me free

i see grace.

so so so beautiful it brings me to tears.

2006-08-23T17:38:00.000+08:00

i guess thats why they call him SAVIOR.

=)

2006-08-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

this is my oprah OOOO moment..

oh man i havent woken up so early since the holidays started. wait no. i had to wake up for church. but that doesnt really count. HAHA

anw. i had pepper lunch with the bestfrienddddd melissa lim ah lim!
fareast was funnn. i dont think ive ever walked around fareast with so much order before! haha! no wonder i always take hours to finish walkin fareast. and now i know jing chang fang factory the place that sells the worst colored shoes. HAHA.

melissalimthebestfriend, trust me, you'd stay with black. HAHA.

saw so many little pretty dresses i want to buy but cannot afford therefore shall ta-han and try to find them all in bkk where im staying right opp mbk. and in melissalimthebestfriend's words " wah! wake up early in the morning, eat your macdonald breakfast den can go shop like mad ah!" yeh man. when i come back i shall not shop in fareast alrd, cause ive bought EVERYTHING.. MUAHAHA.

and oh man! by 4 we were both tired and walkin arnd like crazy little girls that no guys want. sad right. no. we're loved okay. at most by each other. HAHA.

i like siglap! even though all the nyp people tell me they dont like the east, i love siglap! its like a tiny holland v version cannnn! it has everything! i love walkin home from gelare or cheesecakecafe or cartel.. or even someday mariefrance bodyline. HEH!

ok. back to something impt.
i joined some main service something-something-like-ccu-thing a long time ago. and they just called. and sent me an email.

ok i love writing.
i do. i adore writing compositions and stuff.
and if i do say so myself, im usually quite ok at it.
and when it comes to writing about daddygod,
oh man! i cant stop!
so when the email came in
and im required to write a 800words-something about famous man of god, i dont know why, but i totally freaked!

oh daddy im terrified.
what if im not good enough
and they dont want me?
i dont like rejection. nono.

what if my writing has deproved.
what if they dont like it!
oh man. its not fun you know
to be told that you are no good at something you love doing.

oh man daddy i know that if i am able to impress them, i would need you. this is not campus we're talkin about you know! this is MAIN SERVICE!! the people there are ADULTS! working adults!! adults that probably do writing as their JOB!! what can i do?! im a mere student..

imagine if i do get it
imagine if you flip open the solid rock mag, and you see an article, written by ME!! oh wow. daddy that would be awesome.

oh its so scary.
daddy guide me.
hold my hand.
tell me you'll be in control for this.

but where im the weakest at, its where daddy can use me the most right?

oh i need assurance.

and i prolly need to start the research soon. daddy help! im terrifed!! AHHHHH SAVE ME!!!!

<3

2006-08-21T03:41:00.000+08:00

jesus: dance with me?

me: im afraid. i cant. i dont have the courage

jesus: dont be afraid. lean on me. i'll lead you.

me: really? dont let go. dont regret your decision, im really lousy at this.

jesus: i'll never let go. i'll never regret.

-steps on his feet-

me: oh no im sorry. i give up. i cant do this. i told you i cant!

jesus: darling, stop trying to lead. let me lead the way. just rest in my arms. its okay.

i realise.
i really really really love my jesus.
never as much as he loves me
but i do,
i do love him.
this never ending, ever lasting dance of ours.

2006-08-21T02:36:00.000+08:00

its the chase!

daddy i want favour.

favour with kaijin
favour with jon
favour with steve
favour with desmond
favour with amy

favour with coach angie
favour with pastor chin

favour with wendy!

oh daddy i want FAVOUR!
ABUNDANT FAVOUR!
i want to do great things for you daddy, i want to do mighty things for your kingdom. i want to touch hearts with my singing. i want to bring hearts to you with my sharing. i want to love people with your love.

boy am i greedy.
hunger for your favour.

pastor is HAVOC!
HAHA!
: "pretend there's someone after you! then your husband will start wondering, and his heart will get itchy."
: "but ofcourse, dont make matters worst by really having a third party lahhh"

HEH.
fellowshipping with the TPCG!
jon you should laugh more often
steve you look cute in that thingy lahhh!
joey, countepart my head ah!
teddy! hugs bring comfort!
IMM! i really appreciate your help. you're so precious to me.

haha!
i like sundays!
its slowly becomin one of my favourite days of the week!

jon stop trying to stop yourself from falling aslp in conversations pls! HAHA!

oh man the whole singapore is migrating to australia! i shall hate kangaroos from now on! no more for me. pouts.

HAHA.
daddy let tml be good. =)

2006-08-19T23:58:00.001+08:00

birthdays. =)

when you are 1year closer to seeing jesus's arrival. when you are 1year closer to see him part the heavens. when you are 1year closer to see the angel sound the horns for his arrival. when you are 1year closer to be brought to your heavenly home.
ooooh!! how exciting.
=)

i was thinking.
what did jesus feel, each and every birthday he celebrated. was he joyful? or did he dread each coming year. because as he grew older year by year, he was coming closer to the torturous crucifiction.

it wouldnt have been easy, would it. knowing that you were bornt to die. to die for sins that were never yours, to have your beloved father turn his face from you. to cry out, and not be heard, so call your father, GOD, instead of abba..

but i believe
with all my heart i believe
he rejoiced in each coming year. because his love for me was stronger than his dread for the crucifiction. he rejoiced in knowing that he was one step closer in bringing me to daddygod.

oh jesus you are GOOD!!
<3

ooooh i had a BUSY BUSY DAY!
after my whole week of 1 activity per day lifestyle, suddenly i had 4 things to do today! hahaha! see doctor, yum cha, lunch with dawn, mia, ally& yuran, meet shavonne go down for bbq! heh heh! but it was an enjoyable day. so happy. heh heh!

mia i have a surprise for you, you HAVE to meet me on tuesday okayyyyy.

happy birthday anthony! kenny play for me arise adonai again! carol why must you moooovee houseee...?? charissa stop spying on me!! esther and nat stop trying to force snowy to take photo with you! ashley you're so sweet we need to go out! dunstan i didnt talk much to you todayyyy! gracie you can blow BIG bubbles!

ok yah. yes i had a good time. the cake was scarily HUGEEEE. no seriously, it was huge. HAHA. i really think kingdom friends are such a blessing. haha i hope to get to know each and every one of them better. YEAH MAN. daddy you promise kayyy.

charissa dont be sad, dont let the devil get you with condemnation. LAUGH! i love you best when you're laughing, because you're the most glorious then! you sneaky lil girl! charissa i love you!! and your sop-always-get-influenced-by-altos-singing! =)

daddy is good daddy is good daddy is good. =)
<3

2006-08-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

the little things

you know sometimes, its the little things that touches you the most. when jesus solves or talks to you about the little-est tiniest things that matter so much to you, and only personally you. things that seem stupid or ridiculous to others. things so intimate to you, that no one else knows about. that you feel so loved, so understood, so much so you fall in love with him all over again.

yes. falling in love with him again
so simple so beautiful
so magical.

smiles.

really. this cg feels like my family.
just like kaijin said
this is the place i belong.
=)

i went home humming god is awesome

god is awesome in the place
there is power here for miracles
set the captives free
make the broken whole

ive found where i belong
im a living stone
in this house i will grow..

2006-08-18T01:57:00.000+08:00

when love triumphs.

" i still think im right, but i love you more than being right. "
-pastor prince

i think many times, we are so obsessed with being right, that we forget the childishness and silliness of the whole arguement. pastor said many things that i know in my head, just havent dropped into my heart.

ok yes.
its been a long time.

2006-08-18T01:03:00.000+08:00

"""When it seems that God doesn't do what we want, it's not easy for us. Never has been. Never will be. But faith is the conviction that God knows more about this life and he will get us through it.

Remember, disappointment is caused by unmet expectations. Disappointment is cured by revamped expectations. Next time you're disappointed, don't panic. Don't give up. Just be patient and let God remind you he's still in control. It ain't over till it's over.""""

Max Lucado
"HE still moves stones"

dear sister
dont despair.
god is still in control.

2006-08-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

great in zion

people that make my wednesday nights BEAUTIFUL!

<3

2006-08-16T17:13:00.000+08:00

you owe me a red necklace!

and i still want the rest of these photos please

I NEED ENTERTAINMENT!

ps. melody, why havent we properly taken crazy photos yet?

2006-08-15T16:12:00.000+08:00

HEY YOU!

yes you there with that car!
=)

YAY i finally made it to night safari!!
despite my disbelief that we'll ever make it there, WE MADE IT THERE! im so proud of us. yay night safari is FUN! f-f-f-fUN! everyone should go!!

jon you should bring ur cg there and let me tag along!
=)

i saw ELEPHANTS.
they're pretty.
and NO OWLS!
where's my hedwig??
i saw the largest hugest RODENT!
the tram was fun.
i aspire to become like ally&nick on the tram. with nick's arm over ally's shoulders! yes someday i'll bring my boyfriend there!
" oh man why is it so dark!! "
" my favourite animal - DINOSAURS! "
" bye maggie.. BYEEE.. "

HEH HEH. =)

thankyou dunstan for comin over to fetch me
im proud that you didnt get lost!
unlike someone else. HAHA.

" the only time you'll ever see drifting in spore is before an accident "
HAHAHA! yeh man. watch me drift off to sea man kaiwen. HAHA im not to heavy to float around and drift off i promise you.

im gonna be a SINGAPORE TOURIST GUIDE.
" this is RAFFLES PLACE - WAVES HANDS - "
watch out for me on duck tours! =D

i fee-nell-ie wrote my testimony to wendy.
HAHA. found all my courage and wrote it, then sent it to her email. =)

enjoy phone calls. =)

<3 who says there's nothing to look forward to in life?
there's plenty!
heh! =)

2006-08-14T01:38:00.000+08:00

dear mister sneaky-o!

sneaky with funny shoe color combinations
sneaky with the nice warm voice that makes me go gooey.
sneaky that fetches me home
sneaky that rubs shoulders
sneaky that takes secret sneaky sneaky peeks!!
sneaky that makes me happy

i claim the front seat!
=)

devious mia!
making devious little plans!

sneaky that makes me feel as if we're together in this secret little game between us.

2006-08-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

sneaky sneaky peeks

HEH HEH.
oh man fireworks were BEAUTIFUL
and thanks to the company
it was AMAZING. =)
i agree with coach angie,
in church, in campus is where you can truly find kingdom friends that would see your good, bad and ugly, yet still love you the way you are. thats the love of christ! and these friends are those, that would stay with you all the way, because you know you never want to forsake the love of christ in this amazing church, and you never want to leave the amazing people this church produces. mighty warriors of god i say. =)

oh had a great time talkin to ppl aft the fireworks with melody my shadow, and i made a good friend today. her name is linlinTEDDY!! HAHA. and steve really looks like a security guy. HAHA. nothing good starts without bok! charissa is pouting because i didnt go for planet shakers. ashley wants my email add! and... esther is jealous cause i got the belt for 5 bucks. NYPCG i love! and we're gonna catch people, yes melody? =) alex i like because he sings whatever he wants to say, desmond and his 3 twins with 1 that is taller. HAHA. ok i really had a great time.

heh heh heh
sneaky sneaky boy
takes sneaky sneaky peeks!!
=)

exams are over!
what a relief.
it was one of the slowest weeks of my life.
and i thought the Os were bad enough.
phew.
i nearly died there.
overall
i thought it was quite good.

fri lunch with dawnlo ally and miamiamia.
fish&co with sucky calamaries, extra 2 complimentary mints fr the manager!
walkin to suntec,
we found our place to shop before halloween!
whoots.
i'd be either superman, captain jacksparrow, the ugly clown, the harryporter sorting hat, or... a pretty exotic mysterious woman no one can fanthom. HAHAHA.

dinner with the GANG!
oh man. after each meet up we have
i always wish we're in the same school
going home, eating together
how much fun.
oh my COUSIN THIS and his milkshake!
baby HEH HEH. i like. =)

and.. I GOT DIGITAL CABLE!!!
HAHA mia i joined the rank of digital cable ppl.
so everyone should come my house
to view my nice digital topbox
=)

daddy is so good!
we're all peters.
individuals that can only rise with the love of christ. =)
love!<3

2006-08-09T19:59:00.000+08:00

a song of hope

in different seasons, daddy places different people around me to help me through. so similarly, in different seasons, he places different songs to bring me to him.

once it was
your love comes rushin in
by sonic flood.
where im captive in his love
in the grips of his grace

once it was
we will dance
by steven curtis chapman
where we dance
when the january
becomes a pouring rain

once it was
jesus my lord my life
by karen i think
where he was the hero
who leads me by his side

once it was
so you would come
by hillsongs aus
where i learnt that
though my gifts were small
he would take them all

just awhile ago it was
mighty to save
by hillsongs aus
where my god can move mountains
my author of salvation
mighty to save

now it is
oceans will part
by hillsongs aus
when i open my eyes to the work of his hands, he will part oceans, give me hope, and show his glory. and his will be done.

=)
daddy i love this walk with you
i look forward to the next season
<3

2006-08-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

cannot escape

your love comes rushing in
pooring over me
i know when i come running
you're there for me
and there's no way that i
can ever lose my way
i know im captive in your love
in the grip of your grace

event tonight was awesome.
awesome awesome awesome.
awesome god, awesome love, awesome time.

i know daddy
that whatever time i invest in you
you return me 100 fold.

its so precious.
=)

you are my god
you are my lord
you're the only one
who conquered the grave
in you i believe
your love i recieve
you will always be my king

you are my god
you are the sheperd of my life
you are the lover of my soul
you are my god
in every breath that i breathe
your mighty hand is doin wonders for me.

2006-08-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

when studying gets boring
half an hour of the people you love always works.

2006-08-07T13:20:00.000+08:00

your will be done

i quote pastor lian
: HOW TO LOOK TO JESUS?!

how to look to jesus,
when i face the likeliness
of failing this exam
how to look to jesus
when even after all i studied yest
nothing got into my head
how to look to jesus
when i need full marks to score an A
how to look to jesus
when everything seems impossible?

how to look to jesus?

walkin out of the exam hall
my god, it was a really hard thing to do.
it was so hard to walk out knowing that i am still victorious. it was so hard to walk out not regretting serving yesterday, because then i would have my extra time. it was so hard walkin out looking at jesus.

but on the bus,
listening to the song 'oceans will part',
i knew it.
in my life, your will be done..
his will WILL BE DONE.
no matter what circumstance,
no matter how lousy i did,
HIS WILL WILL BE DONE!

if he can part oceans,
if he can bring nations together
at the whisper of his call,
hope will arise, his glory will shine
and in my life
his will be done.

in my life, your will be done..
your will be done lord.

and as i opened my comp,
these 2 words jumped out at me
JESUS REIGNS.

ohwhat comfort it brought to my heart.
yes, JESUS REIGNS
in my exams, JESUS REIGNS
in my results, JESUS REIGNS
in my life, JESUS REIGNS!!!!!

and because JESUS REIGNS,
its gonna be alright.

i just know it.
<3

2006-08-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

its gonna be alright
YEAH

cause i know my God
saves the day
and i know his Word
never fails
and i know my God
made a way for me
Salvation is here.

2006-08-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

kingdom friends.

was just thinking
in every circle, in every group
you need to have that 1 or 2 people, you can really really really click with.

i mean, there is your group of 4/5, but you always need that 1 person to hang around with, to call and whine to when you're bored, to rescue you from scary people.. there's always difficult times when you want that person to call/sms you and ask you whats going on, to just show care.

and im very very blessed
cause i have all of it.

see, in my life, i have my childhood friends.
joce, dex, brandon, chunyim..
people i know for sure, we'll grow old together
because we've known each other since we were babies.

i have my sec school friends, whom im so glad we're still so close with. its amazing how this circle started, and i really really hope it never ends. baby, kaiwen, sher, min, jared, weihwang, kenneth. i really treasure you guys.

i have my nyp favourites.
there are times i throw my temper, i sulk and i snap. but really, you guys light up my life in there. i go to school not to study, but to see you lovelies. ally dawn, dont ever think i dont love you guys as much as i love mia ok. i love all of you. seriously, i do.

and ofcourse, there's my kingdom friends.
i'll never forget how my story in ncc started with lirong, elsa, timo, alene, ariel and alyssa in israel. we had such a great time there eh. hehheh. then we joined choir, and i got to know lovelies like mel and lynn. haha, each wednesday is our day. ive branded wednesdays as CHOIR day. so it'd be our day! and ofcourse, my wonderful cg, kaijin, melody, jane, ada, ivy... ok i cant remembre all the names. but you're such incredible influences in my life, MELMELMEL you know you are. =)
ofcourse there are others to thank, like BOK! dunstan, anthony, kenny, nikki..

haha.
its so nice to see how daddy made sure i would never ever be lonely. because even if one day all these people leave me, i still have my heavenly abba father. =)

2006-08-03T17:23:00.000+08:00

just thinking

2006-08-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

SEAH WT

where do conflicts come from?
1. communication differences
2. structural differences
3. personal differences

i think its all 3.

basic resolution techniques
1. avoidance
2. accomodation
3. forcing
4. compromise
5. collaboration.

we need to stop avoidance,
start with collaboration
and finish it up with compromise.

2006-08-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

relationships are like investments
make sure you invest in low-risk, and high-return ones.
its always easier to find someone that is willing to put in his all, rather than put in your all.

2006-08-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

if the world depended only on God and chocolate chip muffins.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
DAWNLO SWEETS!

this is dawnlo my friend, she's 18, mature and responsible. =)

waking up early in the morning to go to school to study apparently doesnt work, because in the end i still just feel like sleeping. i would say.. 60% productive. haha!

sneaky sneaky dawnlo!
dont go to newyork at citylink
it looks pretty, but the food and service SUCKS.
they need lessons from mr SIAH WT.
they serve you drinks named prettily like carribean in PLASTIC CUPS. and the food is atrocious!
to quote my dearest ally
: "wah! we're not enjoying our meal, we're suffering to finish the meal!"
its that bad. seriously. ribs that dont have meat.. mia: ITS SOFT BONE!!!! ewwww.

i like esplanade! i do i do oh i do!
i like the wind, the river, the scenery, the emo-ness. HAHA. oh oh oh i do. =) its a magnificent place to wonder at daddy's creation.

i miss playing the piano. i really do.
hehs, i remember back in sec school, my compositions that scored the highest or got posted in the school mag, on the white board.. are usually ones that have to do with my piano.
because playing the piano is really, such a.. how do i say this and not sound wrong. its a sensual thing. haha. its very very satisfying. incredibly. you can get lost playing, and not realise that you need to eat. which really, is a big deal to me. HAHA

so anw. at the esplanade.
saw this weirdo nervous guy peforming on the piano.
cant remember what he played, but rememberd that he played the wrong note once or twice. hehs. do remember though, that he abided by all the rules of piano playing, from what i remember that is. hehs.
1. adjust your chair properly, and dont move it.
2. whenever you have to lift, lift it high enough so you sound right
3. when you are playing with only 1 hand, rest your other hand on your thigh, not on the piano.*which i do very often.
4. CURVE YOUR FINGERS!!

ok. i only noticed this 4,
because i used to get scolded for these 4 mistakes all the time.

smiles.

i do miss playing the piano.
daddy i want to play the piano for you again. someday ok, you promised. someday. <3

2006-07-31T11:29:00.000+08:00

its as if he's letting you in on a big secret. something so important kept only between the 2 of you. he makes you feel special, as if you're the only person he would trust this secret with.

2006-07-30T20:28:00.000+08:00

i adore you

the universe is at your feet
gives you praise evermore
the stars will light the skies for you
always god be praised.

it was a good day, despite being sick, haha despite getting scolded by wendy.
seriously, people only call me cherriann when they're angry. except my 2d people that is. those who usually call me cherri, would sound damn scary damn fierce when they call me CHERRIANN.

imagine my happiness, when i saw that it was ally conducting, not wendy. HAHA. this way i wont get kicked off stage for fainting. so i sat down dwelling in my happiness. THEN, when i stood up, to my HORROR, i saw WENDY. AHH. haha.
wendy's such an amazing person, albiet kinda scary at times, but such an incredible mothery figure. i do love her dearly, and i do yearn for her favour at times, for occasions like items. HAHA
but when she scolds me, DAMN. i dont like staring into people's eyes. haha. whats with people who can stare at you without looking away. dont you feel uncomfortable?!!?

ok anw. its my last chance.
if i faint again..
then off i go.
no more serving for at least a month i gather. =(
pray for me loves.

ive pondered on the idea of going to the doctor for a long time. should i go get a full body check up? should i go to my family doctor? or should i trust in the lord.

dont look at me with expressions like 'OFCOURSE YOU ARE TO TRUST THE LORD. THATS WHY YOU'RE CHRISTIAN. YOUR CHURCH IS THE HEALTH AND WEALTH CHURCH, SO WHY DONT YOU DO WHAT YOU PREACH?'

because though i might be weak in my flesh, weak in my thinking, my god is still in control.

and i did the smartest thing a grace-god-loving-christian-that-jesus-loves-the-most would do. i went to him in prayer.
with doubts, shame and disappointment, i went to him.

doubts whether or not he would heal me

shame that its alrd my 3rd time fainting
shame that i actually doubt him

disappointment, that he did not ans my prayers, did not heal me of fainting.

it was a dark time for me. seriously.
but he never left me.

because john 6:6 says
long before i even had a need, daddy knew, and like what a loving father would do, he provided a way out, a solution for me. long before i even knew i would be sick, daddy healed me of this sickness.

i went to church at 8am, feeling slightly feverish, with a blocked nose and a sore throat. i came back home at 430, still slightly feverish, nose still blocked, throat still sore. but i knew something had been transformed.

during worship, it was terrible. ive never had a more fearful, nervous, anxious worship session in my life. it was really really terrible. half of the time i was worrying whether the food i ate before coming was enough to made sure i wouldnt faint, the other half of the time i was worrying about moving my feet so my head gets enough blood. and when im not thinkin these thoughts, i would think about how uncomfortable my body felt, how pain my throat was, how itchin i was to cough.

my god. you dont know how incredibly awful it was. it just totally drained my energy. when i got off stage, all i could think of was, ok, now i should eat the bread and eat even more to make sure i dont faint in the 2nd service. i felt like all my energy was put into worrying. it was like, my first priority is to make sure in all ways possible that i wont faint again, and then, my 2nd priority is to worship jesus.
man. when you feel like this, im telling you.
ITS BAD.

so i stuffed myself with food during the break. and when i say stuff, i really really stuffed.

but when i went back up for the altar call, something happened.
daddy whispered to me something SO BEAUTIFUL!!!
'my love, worship is not supposed to be like this.
its not supposed to be fearful, its not supposed to be scary. its my love serenade to you, its our love song. its where we dance, where we fall in love.
you can rest in me.
rest in my faithfulness.
rest in my healing.
darling, just know that i love you
and all will be well'

oh my god.
i felt like just kneeling down there
on the stage
and just bawling my eyes out.
my daddy is SO GOOD!!!!
can you feel his love???
HE IS SO GOOD!!!!
my heart is stilling smiling from his words.
its like a huge earthquake's aftermath.
everything is shattered. all my disbelife, doubts, shame, disappointments. all shattered!!

haha.
isnt he so good?
so for the 2nd service worship, i totally enjoyed myself.
i worshipped daddy like it was my last chance ever to worship him. and man, it was goooooood...
ITS GOOD TO BE BACK!
=)

so even though circumstances tell me im not healed
im still sick
im so weak i might faint anytime
i know that inside, I AM HEALED.
my healing is MINE, because the healer has set me free.

daddy reaffirmed his word.
through pastor, through worship leaders
i know for sure
i am healed
the fainting spells, its all lying symptoms.
all is well,
all is good.

=)
i adore you
<3

2006-07-29T01:39:00.000+08:00

cherriann, stop fainting alrd.

should stop. should stop.
should stop forgetting to eat enough so i dont faint. should stop forgetting to move my feet during worship so i dont faint. should stop sleeping late so i dont faint. should just stop fainting, and giving wendy more reason to kick me offstage.

BUT I DONT WANT.
I WANT TO SERVE!!!
EVERYSUNDAY, EVERYBS!
I WANT.

so conclusion,
should stop fainting.

seriously, whatever pleases you.

praise and worship night was GOOD.
was AWESOME.
even though i fainted, again.
but i went back in time for the item, and pressed on!!

wendy said something that i believe was specially meant for ME. yes ME.
each one of us have a story to tell.

thinking about my own story, wow. its an amazing story. its a beautiful christ centered story. its an incredible story of grace, undeserving favour. its a new story filled with love. its a new story rising from glory to glory.
i have so much to tell, so much to share. i want to TELL THE WORLD!!
tell the world that this story, its not a bedtime story, its not a fable. its a love story, a love song written specially to each and everyone of us.
how could this world be a better place, but by thy mercy, by thy grace!

i love serving.
oh yes i love it so much.
to be there, to be making a difference, to minister to the congregation. WOW. its too personal to describe. pastor said that because we took time off for to serve HIM, this time, its not wasted time. my cab fare was not wasted money, my energy was not wasted energy, my tears were not wasted. because daddy takes all these and in return, gives me his abunding FAVOUR, and i am rewarded 30 fold, 60 fold, a 100 fold!

BOK. silly silly silly!
yes. hope is on its way. there's nothing i can do anyway. so its out of my hands now. and i love you so for caring so much about me!
kingdom friends, kingdom friends!

BABY.
its not a quarrel. its stupid stubborness. heh. yep im comin tml. we can have a good dinner with the gang. and i miss you. we need more meet-ups.

i see the walls come tumbling down.
no,
I SAW THE WALLS DOWN BY MY FEET!!
yes. that was what i saw.
i saw it beautifully. an AMAZING picture.
you know the west wall of jerusalem?
YES i saw it all tumbled down.
i saw the traditions and religious rules of the jews ALL TUMBLING DOWN. i saw them recieve christ, acknowledge that HE IS LORD. haha its such a beautiful picture, the love of christ, his faithfulness, his never failing promises. wow. israel belongs to him. they have ALWAYS belonged to him.

and personally to me, i saw daddy, with a flicker of his hands, tore down my walls of trouble, disbelief, lack of hope, disappointment, shame and unhappiness.
all it took was a flicker of his fingers, and he told me it was all gonna be alright. believe in him, believe him when he says, it is done. your victory is here. you are high above any and every principality, life or death in this world, high above the nations.
when ronnie sounded that horn. my heart just soared. because i knew in that horn, my victory, as it was back in israel, it is done. its been given to us already. my victory is HERE. victory over my studies, victory in troubles faced at home, victory among fights and quarrels, victory over the devil.

really,nothing can seperate us from daddy, not even his own being, his righteousness, his justice. because he loves us SO MUCH. i heard once, that GOD IS LOVE. IF HE DOESNT LOVE, HE CEASES TO EXIST. to you get me? without his love for YOU, he wouldnt bother to be around.

daddy, you whispered to me
i love you, you are worthy of my love.

and i believe. oh i believe it so.
from the deepest depth of my heart, i believe.

jesus i dont know what to say
i only know that YOU LOVE ME
and i know, that you know i love you.

<3

cherriann, stop fainting alrd.

2006-07-27T00:23:00.000+08:00

indiana

this morning i whispered to daddy on the bus.
daddy, show me more of you. show me more of your glory.
then i just felt like daddy was looking straight into my heart, smiling at me.

and i had my share of daddy today, just like he promised.
during practice, after we went through the battle belongs to the lord, pastor free flowed abit, and while we were worshiping, daddy put this picture in my mind.

you know in cartoons, the old times where the indians always have rituals around campfires, chanting chanting chanting, then the sky would suddenly turn colorful, and a mighty voice would speak to them from the heavens. and every thing would be all magical?

thats the picture i saw. i saw indians dancing around a campfire singing and chanting, with a colorful sky and a mighty voice.

it was so timely, because i felt that pastor's free flowing had a little indian charm to it. hearing his annointed singing, seeing that beautiful picture in my mind.. things just felt incredible. it almost felt like i was there, out in the wilderness, singing and dancing infront of a campfire, under the stars all for daddygod.
then HE saw it, and loved it.
he spoke to me, and told me, i am his beloved child, in whom he is well pleased.
and all was well.
the heavens were pleased, it was so beautiful.

heh.

i had a good day.
photo taking was FFFFUN.
jumping around, my exotic hair, the crazy photographer, flowers in the hair, and my nice flowy comfy skirt.
=)
its the company that counts.
haha!

now, all i need are the pictures to prove the fun i had wasnt all just a dream. =D

<3333

2006-07-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

abundance

ive been feeling the abundance of daddy's favour recently. its been an amazing journey.

in my school work especially, ive seen so much of his favour, whether it be handling useless group members, or studying for easypeasy tests.

was talkin to anthony. got me started into thinking abt choir. it was daddy's plan in the first place, to put lirong into my life. so when i joined choir, not once did i felt left out. i felt completely accepted even though i didnt know anyone.
then i got choosen for the recent item, and i knew it was the favour of god. because there are so many other sops with better voices and have been in choir so much longer than me. daddy has placed so much grace around me, now looking back i feel so grateful.
if what anthony says is true, then i praise daddy for supernatural favour with wendy, that every item there is to come in the future, i would be part of it. because daddy, i so so so want to serve you in my best. i love ministering to the congregation on that stage, knowing that being there, i am making a difference in someone's lives.

the abundance of favour.
it has never lacked in my life, never fell apart through my walk with daddy, never once left me disappointed.
that abundance of favour has left me so refreshed, so incredibly refreshed by the word of god.

so precious to me.
<3

2006-07-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

mighty to save

campus was amazing.
daddy's prescence was so beautiful, it moved me to tears.

you know my cgl dream?
to be honest, i wasnt sure if it was my own wishful thinking, or what daddy had planned for me. today i learnt my answer. i am made for greater things. so whatever it is, if daddy is the one who put this desire in me, he will be the one to fulfil it. he never breaks his promises.

when i was crying, i wasnt sure why the tears flowed.
i felt the holy spirit just come around me, and put me in his warm arms. i felt so loved, so cherished, so precious in his eyes. so much my tears just flowed, the love daddy has for me is so intense, so strong so overwhelming. and what i feel, is probably only 1% of what he feels for me.

you know pastor said something, something that just touched my heart. he said, "we should not live without his love, while daddy cannot live without us." its so beautiful. daddy wouldnt do anything without me. he wouldnt make the world pretty if it wasnt because for me. its ME. ME that matters the most to him. as much as he is everything to me, even more, i am everything to him.

amazing grace, how sweet the sound.

i want every worship to be like this
loving, personal, beautiful..
every session should be filled with the prescence of god
every session my heart should overflow with his goodness.
i want it
daddy i want this.
i want your prescence
i want to catch it.

it was a lovely picture, to see campus ministry coming together to worship daddy, to go mad for daddy, to dance for joy, the jump with exhileration.

i dont think they will ever see this, but

kaijin: you may not know this, but you are really such an awesome woman. daddy has done such great things in you, and he will continue doing great miracles in your life, so you would bring glory to his name. you're such a precious friend to me.

jon: you'll never know the impact you had on me. you were the one who asked me to join my cg that im totally in love with now. i really really enjoy whatever conversations we've had, on the phone or face to face. you've blessed my life in such amazing, amazing ways. kaijin once said, to not wait till we've graduated to regret that we never got to know her better. i dont want to wait till next jan when you're leaving for aus to regret not knowing you better.

BOK!: one of my favourite blog reads. your entries always leave me feeling the love of daddy. thats spiritual you know? it lifts my spirits up whenever im down. knowing you in choir and campus is an incredibly great gift that daddy gave me. i can see so much love, so much glory in your life. bok, continue in his ways, and never ever ever stop loving and trusting in his plans.

nikki philly? & unclu muthu: sean i dont think you even know i read ur blog, nikki i love you! both your blogs are such inspirations in my life. sean your pictures and revelations never ceases to show me how daddy works in miraculous ways, nikki, your blog brightens up my days, and seing you in choir just makes me happy immediately. to be honest, i feel very honoured to know a main service worship leader, i know its kinda dumb. but still, haha. i remember you once said to me, you said that i would grow to be a woman of god, and daddy would definitely use me in great areas. ive claimed it then, and i claim it again now. you both dont know it, but you've been great impacts in my life.

daddy i thank you
thankyou for putting people of such wisdom, people that has such great understandings of your love around me. daddy you said to surround myself with wisemen, and daddy you've placed them around me.
thankyou sweetest daddy.

<3

2006-07-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

swirly chairs

ok. i had lots of fun today.
see. i told you my god is big.
told you today's filming would be good.
besides the freeloaders, cherrially always wins!
yes yes.

but still,
if i ever have to direct kids for another project, i might just faint and die. but then ofcourse, i'll resurrect on the 3rd day also. haha. nonsense. it was really tiring today. totally draining. so tiring. so sweaty. ew. haha

BABY!! thankyou so much for helpin me today. i would have been damn screwed if it werent for you today. seriously, you rock man. every girl should have a bestfriend like you. seriously.
i'll treat you to some good food someday okay. i really do love you. =D!

had a GREAT time at chompchomp.
i swear gardens is enchanted. HAHA
everytime i go there i go hyper.
its ENCHANTED!
see see seeee.. icecream places makes people happy, and im happy.
mayb its the company that matters, but still, it looks like a happy place. with swirly chairs ofcourse.

ok. today was a good day.
just like what daddy promised.
now daddy, lead me through the whole of next week.
yay campus tml. yay im starting to love campus. i love my cg. heh heh. i'll join CLUSTER DINNER! whoots.

ok yeah.
its a totally random post.
in conclusion: i need a driver.

haha.
byebye. =D

2006-07-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

can one can one

its funny how different things can be,
from a favoured daughter of god, compared to just someone out there.

i quote
'thats why i have a edge over you.
i have faith
while all you have is superstition.'

i always say can one can one
but i mean it.
i truly believe that i can do it.
why?
because not me, but jesus in me is doing it. if jesus is doing it, why worry? definitely there wouldnt be a problem!
i know that i can do it because i have the favour of god. i have the favour of my daddygod, the one who created the universe, the one who created whatever we have now. my fate is in his hands, he has prepared my future for me, and my father who gives me all good things will give me an incredible future.

can one can one,
its not something i say to convince myself
i dont say it to make my day seem better, because i know it is better. i know that with jesus, all things is possible!!

the joy of the lord is my strength
being joyful in the lord is such a beautiful act.
isnt he so considerate?
to give us the desire to worship him, to love him, even letting us enjoy that process so much, then bless us because we worship him.
being joyful of what he has done, is doing, and is going to do for me, that gives me strength everyday. gives me strength to do what i feel is impossible, gives me strength to do what people deem impossible. because my god is almighty, i know, that nothing can stand before me.

trust me when i say
can one, can one

because it would come to pass
because my god would amaze you.

because my god means what he says.
he keeps his promises.

<3>
=D happy girl.

2006-07-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

i think its a pretty picture

ive learnt a lesson i thought i knew so well. ive learnt that having the favour of dearest sweetest daddygod, can make such a huge difference in your life. ive learnt, that it is not what you can perform, what you can do, what you know that would bring you praises, its daddy's favour. because everything can go wrong, yet with daddy, all wrong just becomes right.

what can stand before me,
if my god is for me, WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME?
no one.
no one.

the bible says, there is ONE EVIL day, and MANY GOOD DAYS. that evil day has passed, and i await all the good days of my life.

you know something? songs and praises dont say we have to fight against enemies, they say, you fight against AN ENEMY.
its singular, not plural.
know why? because i only have 1 enemy. his name is mr S.A. TAN. others are just small stuff. my JESUS, he is VICTORIOUS. he has DEFEATED satan. CRUSHED his head.
and i am victorious. because that redeemer lives in me.

smiles.
im all smiles today.

that car that smells right,
looks right too.

<3

2006-07-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

its a happy world.

2006-07-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

i love worship

i put my heart and soul up there during worship, and i enjoy every moment of it.

but what i love more than worship,
is sharing.

it refreshes me
it gives me strength from the source himself
it renews my heart
it clears my mind, brightens my eyes, annoints my mouth and open up my ears.

i love it.
cg is getting more and more interesting.

someday;
someday daddy, i will be a cgl.
thankyou.
i believe thats your plan for me.
<3

my heart is just overflowing with your goodness.

2006-07-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

its so nice to know you have brothers and sisters in christ that you can turn to in times of need.

DADDY YOU'RE SO GOOD!!!!

<3
i dont know how i lived my life without you. imagine all that lack of favour, blessings, the lack of love.. life must have been terrible. =)

i cant help but love you more
when more and more i see
your goodness unto me.

2006-07-10T20:26:00.000+08:00

use your head zidane ,
but not literally.

it was a tragedy that france lost! the italians dont deserve to win!!
quoting wh.

thankgod i made it to school, to finish that horrible story board, to go to class and talk to ms decruz my ass. argh. its so not my day.

why the hell was i sitting around in school till 1?
oh yeah. we were having stone timed group meetings.
with amelia ms tummyache again.
seriously, we should be in the same proj for everything. then.. i dumped her, and got my precious sleep.

for like 30 MINS.
there were FUCKING NOISY INDIANS ON THE BUS.
seriously. like fucking IRRITATING, as if they owned the bus.
ofcourse, that was until i couldnt take their jesting anymore, and decide to open my big fat mouth. there! yes. i scolded irritating indians on the bus today. yes. there! im racist! i hate noisy indian guys! they smell they polute the air, and they think they own the world. go to HELL you.

besides the point?
i actually slept a total of 6 hours at home.
still feeling groggy. still want to sleep.
wish i didnt wake up for dinner and slept all the way through to tml morning at 10. sighs.

meli baby, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE say yes to acting for me... PLEASE im BEGGING YOU. im DESPERATE!!!!
no pressure there huh.

argh.
and the big huge unwanted M is here. is that too much info? too bad. watch out for stains. bah.

2006-07-08T09:18:00.000+08:00

hey you there, im sorry okay.

2006-07-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

im just being childish.

but im not the only one playing this game.
i hate conflicts. i hate confrontations.
but there's a limit to where my patience end you know.

i realise i try to help ppl, but i cant apply the same theory to myself in similar situations. how ironic. its almost bordering the line of superficiality dont you think.

but i guess thats where daddy comes in. not me, but christ in me, so no condemnation! yes.

it really is ironic isnt it.
i hate fighting, hate going on cold wars with people, yet this morning, nothing in this world could have made me talk to yuran or khai. i was bent ignoring them. noway in hell would i apologise for my behavior.

seriously you know.
mia tell me.
how childish i was.
very right.
i know thankyou.

i duno.
at least its almost settled

have some common sense, you

2006-07-05T00:45:00.000+08:00

standing on water

let the pictures speak for themselves

it was a nice day.
=)

2006-07-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

caught in the middle

its not that i approve of it, but it doesnt mean i enjoy it either. but we're friends right. and im allowed to say we've been close friends for the past 1 year plus, so why let small matters like these change things in between.

suddenly doing normal stuff like having lunch takes so much effort. its so hard to think of topics that include both that wouldnt offend any. why make life so hard.

we know how each of us are like, we know each other's temperamant already, so why choose now of all times to pick on characteristics we dont like.

your side, my side
does it really matter?
we do the same stuff everyday,
we see each other in school everyday
and conversations revolve around each other every minute.

isnt just accepting things the way they are so much more easier?

any way is better than a confrontation isnt it.

2006-06-29T22:31:00.000+08:00

mon cheri

even though i have the weirdest group for filming, i dont believe i cannot do well. because i know daddy have alrd won this irritating battle for me. and i am victorious. its favour that will win me my grades, not my weird group members.

i want my life with my famous five
we'll be the f.r.i.e.n.d.s immitations!
mr dino-look-alike-chandler!
ms neat-freak-melibaby-monica!
so fun.
immagine it. baby you would drive, and send me to school every every every day! den we'll go for prata and grow fat together. so we'll be these 2 old fat ladies eating popcorn watching soccer!
imagine us all under one roof everyday, although we havent found our phoebe. but she'lll come along. sooner or later. hahaha. imagine the fun! forever watching soccer together, celebrating birthdays together and shooting nonsense at each other everyday.

ahh. heaven, yes?
=D

cher, i really like the 5 of us

<3 HAHA

2006-06-27T22:47:00.000+08:00

rejoice, daughter of zion

i love israel
i love the way daddygod is still so faithful to abraham's seed.
i love how daddygod pulled me into the circle of amazing brother and sisters i have right now.

t'was so amazing. haha
without israel, i wouldnt have known lirong, amanda, ariel, timo. which would have never led to us going to campus knowing my dear caregroup members, which pushed me to auditioning for choir with lirong knowing my favourite choir sweethearts.
it really is amazing how daddy works.

i really enjoyed myself in israel

we had our chance to visit JORDAN; PETRA the lost city, the one where indiana jones had his movie - raiders of the lost ark.

we went to the beautiful beautiful nazareth, where my sweetest jesus spent most of his life in.

then there was the the garden tomb, where jesus was said to be buried.
this sign was put at the door, and it had such a huge effect on my heart.

anyway.
the point is
i really really really want to go israel this time.
because we'll actually be going BETHLEHAM!!!
where jesus was bornt! it was only open to public recently, and i really would like to go see!!

daddygod, dearest daddygod
i pray you make a way for our family to be able to go to your promised land to see even more of your works in our lives. please daddy! i know you will make it possible for us, and you will give me a super annoited, super fun trip with kids my age also! daddy i thankyou ahead of time, because i know you plan my future my life, because you are the creator of time! yes! daddy i love you!! thankyou so much, you're the BEST!!!

amazing grace!<3

2006-06-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

so grateful

this is gonna be a long entry.

PICTURES!!!!
DISNEYLAND!!!!

AMELIALEELINGYI!!!

click on the pictures for a larger one. =D the parade pictures look prettier in full image. try and fine the main characters. hahahaha.
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on the way, waiting for our car to come!
excited!

DISNEYLAND!!!!!
it was really empty then.
dont know why

DISNEY'S CASTLE!

im telling you, the disney shops had EVERYTHING inside. its like a little kids dream inside there. =D thats why we fit in just right

then we met MULAN!
you know, the girl-became-guy country saving hero. haha

you dont go to disney without trying on minnie mouse's ears. =D

we were just in time for the DISNEY PARADE!

my favourite! the disney princesses!

alice in wonderland looks scary!

LITTLE MERMAID! one of my personal favourites

toystory! and green army soldiers! can you see??

and the grand finale!

the parade was awesome! the music, the atmosphere.. it just makes people feel like they're in another world. mayb thats why they call it disneyland. haha

after the parade.. woah. its like the people were all rushing off to get free gifts. it was so crowded i nearly regretted going to disney land. NAH. haha

the main castle entrance. it was really pretty. this is where the fireworkds were held at night, but i dont have the photos yet. dont blame me, my cousin havent sent me my photos and my camera died.

right inside the fairy place, its the CINDERELLA CAROUSEL!!! it was so pretty i had to take more photos. haha

next stop - mad hatters crazy TEACUP PARTY!
after playing that i got so dizzy i wanted to puke.
shall never sit stuff like that again.

tomorrowland had this really really cute game. its a shooting game. haha inside there i felt like a kid again. but this was the only ride we actually played twice. how wacko.

haha when you see stuff like that, you just POSE!

the balloon uncle was nice enough to let me hold his balloons for a pretty picture. haha i really like this picture. the balloons are really really cute and pretty!

the streets were really pretty as it became darker and the lights were turned on.
the little houses, OH MAN. it looked so nice i wanted to just stay there. haha

can you almost smell the bread baking inside?

isnt it pretty? hahaha i like!!!
one last look at my favourite place in disneyland
it looks magical doesnt it. =D

one last photo before the fireworks start, and my camera dies on me.
DISNEYLAND!!!! i loved it. =D

2006-06-18T17:39:00.000+08:00

altogether lovely; altogether worthy

i cant believe how foolish i was, to think that being in another church in another country, daddy wouldnt be able to touch me. =/
so silly.

i even tried to resist his touch!!
tell me
ncc people, tell me!! how stupid that was. why on earth did i do that? i have no idea.

ok i lied. i have quite a good idea actually.
because i didnt believe that a non-charismatic, non-grace-based church is good, i even went to the extent of walkin into that church with my arms folded, and kept them folded throughout worship. i know.dumb. thankyou.
worship is seriously, seriously such a beautiful thing. really it brings people to daddy. even through my folded arms and stubborn attitude, worship still got to me.

thats not all. there's more. =/
the songs sang during worship were surprisingly, hillsongs songs. i was surprised. but i kept my stupid stubborn attitude. the hongkong people here didnt really know how to sing, i mean, hillsongs are fast. hk ppl are slow. haha. still. i kept my head up high, and sang loudly. i mean, choir right, you at least have a little standard in your singing. yet somehow, just like darlene said. i got sidetracked. i started focusing on my being proud, instead of singing to my daddy. i started singing just for the sake of singing, i could can been singing worldly songs in the church for all i cared. i felt nothing, i payed no attention to the words, i payed no attention to the love that was pouring out, i payed no attention to the annointing that was there.
i was no better than that hypocritical guy in the bible whom i forgot his name was.

thankgod HE redeems all stupidness.

i song i least expected to have an effect, had a huge effect on me. again
all for love's sake became poor..
here i am to worship
here i am to bow down
here i am to say that you're my god.

yes.
wow daddy.
i expeced nothing from service this morning, but i recieved so much. daddy you're incredible. your love reaches me whereever i am. i can never ever escape from your prescence because you are always with me. different countries, different churches, these still cannot block your love reaching me. yes daddy.

its fathers day today,
and i recieved the most beautiful revelation, that i know made my daddygod the happiest ever.

i know you love me.

happy fathers day,
dearest sweetest daddygod.

<3

2006-06-16T23:35:00.000+08:00

ALLY BOBELLY!

when i see you smile 說:
yah loh. its supposed to be the FOUR OF US, not the FOUR OF YOU
when i see you smile 說:
EEEEEE

spanishieeeee! 說:
eh nick heard abt ur silk boxers...
spanishieeeee! 說:
he wants it!!

spanishieeeee! 說:
lol okok eh what u doing there??
when i see you smile 說:
trying to delay bathing
spanishieeeee! 說:
eeeee dirty girl!!

spanishieeeee! 說:
hahahaha
spanishieeeee! 說:
we go eat stingray together!!

spanishieeeee! 說:
i miss u la u faster come back la!!

EVERYONE MISS ME?
oh yes you do!
<3

to the worldcup... netherlands win please, go i get a free mac meal

2006-06-16T00:45:00.000+08:00

its dumb when it takes a bestfriend-blowingfan-non-believer-girl to remind you about the lifetime of grace you have.

mickey's comin soon.
<3+<3

2006-06-14T21:35:00.000+08:00

HONGKONG. loves.

ok. my lovelies.
im here with photos finally. haha. kinda lazy to post the photos actually cause the photos were too big, so blogger couldnt put them in, therefore had to go back to my century old photobucket account to upload(which took hours) and post them in html here. hahaha
im just whining because it took so much trouble actually.

this time in hk..
think its because we only have 1 week, so everything's in a rush. need to eat dinner with this aunt, lunch with that godfather, need to meet da BRATHA! need to go wakeboarding, need to go disney, need to go bai shan(visit ancestors), need to do lots of stuff. yah. so 1 week is really, too little. shall always remember to do a 2 week hongkong next time.

ok. did nothing much on monday.
tuesday just shopped arnd abit and had to go for a long cantonese revive old times with aunties dinner. expectedly, everyone thinks im very tall, very pretty(ofcourse), and look alot like mommy. also expectedly, everyone thinks shavonne the sister looks much prettier, is much taller(they didnt expect cause they've been putting all their attn on me all along). even more expected is that they all think mommy still looks very pretty, especially with her short hair, and that she doesnt look like she's aged. haha yes.

my favourite hongkong cousin
who has dumped me and gone to arizona.
she loves me, oh yes.

you dont do unglam things in hk
thats why we're doin this
we're unique. HAHAHA.
as if

i dont know why we were so happy. it was a really boring dinner. i dont even know how i am related to the aunt we were eating with. HAHA

the toilet was really pretty though.
had lots of flowers. gd place for camwhoring.
=D

told you people i had a brother.
THIS IS MY BROTHER.
he really exists.
i didnt make him up just for a good story

the three wongs.
big middle small
my dad has 3 kids, my mom has 2 kids.
HAHA

we look really cute.
yes its his specs
dont you think i should get one too.
HEH HEH

they had really nice birthday buns.
its pinky and really sweeeet.

i love my brother, oh yes i do.
he's the geeky brother with big geeky specs that watches soccer with me and loves liverpool.
YES I LOVE HIM.

yep.
nt very happy with my buy this time
but wth.
its an experience packed week.

till after disney

<3

2006-06-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

sunday rock.

service with darlene was AMAZING..
i swear it was mind-blowing ok. it was so annointed. so incredible. oh man. no words can describe what i felt then. its like, WOAH.

the worship.
whoot. i felt the presence of god so so so strongly, it touched my heart so much tears just couldnt stop flowing. more like they wouldnt stop flowing actually. you know there are time you want to cry, and time you dont want to cry. it was a time i didnt want to cry, but my emotions were so raw, so overflowing. it was so awesome.

talking abt familiarity, with all i am is a song ive known for a long time, and it never really touched me much. so i thought it wouldnt be anything.
i never knew, that its first verse already started the torrent of tears i couldnt control. and that beautiful, beautiful, BEAUTIFUL song, at the cross. it was like WOW. tears just kept flowing and flowing and flowing. it was so so so beautiful. to know that daddy you love me, to know that jesus your blood was shed for me. wow. even until now i still remember those emotions i felt. i was awesome. really.

to once again feel the presence of god. whoo. it was so good. i went home feeling so so so loved. so so so triumph. i felt i could do anything, anything at all. just throw it at me, and i can do it, because of that amazing god in me, who actually prefers the name ABBA, meaning father, compared to the title of El Shaddai, the Almighty God. can you believe it? what an amazing father i have.

darlene is such an amazing women. that awe i felt the moment i laid my eyes on her. wow. she's such a wonderful gift from god. such an instrument that allowed herself to be used by daddy. she has such a huge revelation of the love daddy has for her, thats why she has such an amazing overflowing love in her.

daddy, i ask for even more! i asked to be used in greater heights. i ask of you to make me an instrument meant for your work, and only your work, to bring more and more people into your kingdom. daddy worship is such an amazing gift you gave us. i pray, that you give me the anointing to bring people into your prescence through worship also. daddy, its not the quality of my voice, nor the loveliness of the music that would touch people's hearts, its the love that you put in me, so much that it overflows to touch people's hearts.

oh daddy.
i have so much in me
so much to thank you
im so so so grateful
how can i ever express what i feel.
daddy, i know you love me.
i know you love me.

at the cross i bow my knee
where your blood was shed for me
there's no greater love than this
you have overcome the grave
your glory fills the highest place
what can seperate me now
you tore the veil
you made a way
when you said that it is done

all my delight is in you lord
all of my hope
all of my strength
forevermore

how great is our god
sing with me
how great is our god
and all will see
how great, how great is our god
he's the name above all names
you are worthy to be praised
my heart will sing
how great is our god

tears.
grins.
<3

2006-06-11T21:43:00.000+08:00

i know you love me

Oh Lord You've searched me, You know my way
Even when i fail You, I know You love me

Your holy presence, surrounding me
In every season, I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross i bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You go before me, You shield my way
Your hand upholds me, I know You love me

You tore the veil, You made a way
When You said that "it is done"

And when the earth fades, falls from my eyes
And You stand before me, I know You love me
i know You love me

im so deeply in love.
<3